Shocked to the core....
What they found stunned me.
My first ultrasound was scheduled at 8am. My children not leaving my side, took me to my appointment. They probed and pushed, clicking and measuring. Trying to stay as still as possible. The technician comes over and hands me a consent form, what is this? They have to continue measuring, they need to go internal. Yup, they lubed me up and inserted a "probe" deep into my vagina. I wasn't prepared for that. I had a full grown bush down south, I couldn't think of anything else at that moment. Embarrassment took over for only a split second. My focused was right back on my breathing through the pain. Of course, no drug store is open at 7am in the morning so the prescription I got the night before has not been filled. I was popping Advil and Tylenol like candy just to survive. By the time the ultrasound was done, approx 40mins later. I was then ushered over to the emergency room. My son Logan went to fill the prescription. My daughter Lauren waiting right beside me while I await the arrivals of narcotics and results.
I went into the examining room. The doctors were, absolutely incredible. They rushed around trying to get me comfortable. They couldn't give me anything for the pain I took too many over the counter pain meds, I needed to wait for them to wear off. They didn't do much for the pain, still I took too many.
When Logan finally arrived with my prescription, they said I needed to wait till at least 11 am before taking my first one. Well, it was shortly after 10, when he came into the room. I took one immediately. My pain went from a 10, down to a 5. I felt human again.
The one thing that confused me more than anything, they were focusing on my right side where the pain was not..the pain was all on my left side. They said the pain is radiating from the right to the left... I didn't question it.
The doctor came in about 11:30am... she was the most compassionate lady I have ever had pleasure of dealing with. She sat beside me, my son on the other side of me.(they only let one kid in at a time) she went over what they found.
We found a 20cm cyst on your "right" ovary. Tears pouring down my face I felt like I had 24 hours to live. I know a little dramatic, my mind went racing to worst case scenario.
Cystadenoma. They are very common, most women don't even know they have them there whole life, they are not life threatening the Doctor said, the pain should subside on it's own. They gave me a referral to a Gynaecologist, they can go over options for treatment and the next steps. If at any time the pain gets worse get back in here as soon as possible she said. I was feeling better, after her talk.
I left the hospital with my children in tow, and back home to my bed is where I went.
The next few days were a blur. The morphine killed my pain, I was allowed 2 pills a day...12 hours apart. They were on the dot 12 hours apart.
My kids turn into little drill sergeants. Logan called and made an appointment with the gynaecologist he was very adamant I get get in right away. They were able to see me the next day, which was Friday. My appointment was horrible, the doctor wanted to do a pap test and I said no, I was still in a ridiculous amount of pain. Tears filling my eyes, this woman had no compassion at at. She proceeded to tell me there was no need for tears, I was in an emotional state to begin with, she made it worse. She thought I was lying.
What do you want she said, these things are common in a few days you'll be fine. She gave me a list of options, removal was one. Without hesitation I said I want it out.
My surgery was booked for April 8,2024 it was solar eclipse day....When I do things I do them big.
Surgery was supposed to be routine and last about 2 hours. I was in surgery for 7 hours straight. The common Cystadenoma was not so cut and dry as they thought. My stomach and internal organs were all covered in a greenish slim that looked like pus, all throughout. The doctor told me it was like a bomb went off. They cut out the large tumour that has started leaking everywhere. Along with the tumour they had to take out my complete left ovary..yes LEFT not right.
Everything was sent away for testing.
I had to stay in the hospital, as the stress of the surgery was too much for my body, it was shutting down. They were able to get me stabilised and put me in a room.
June 18th 2024 I went back to see the dreadful gynaecologist for a follow up and the results of all the tests.. They had tested for everything, including cancer.
She was so pleasant with me. First thing she said to me upon entering the examining room, thank you for exercising your rights. She was very empathetic this time around, she looked over my incisions and everything was healing great. We sat down. She talked and I listened. I was in complete shock.
I had been pregnant for almost 10yrs. The embryo implanted in my abdomen. The fetus was about 4 months along by the remains that were still in the sac.(tumour) how it stayed intact all these years is a mystery. The fact I had 4 pregnancies alone was a shock. The test for cancer all came back negative. I had two things removed on April 8, 2024 a baby I knew nothing about and my left ovary, which was damaged beyond repair by the weight and pressure of the tumour.
I feel so blessed and lucky, to have been given another chance at life. Nothing like a standstill, a near death experience to change your perspective on life. I am now in the mindset of now or never. Life is too short to live with any sort of regret. I made my mind up I was going to live my life, my way. So I did. I took control back of my life. My goals and dreams are all within reach. It's truly amazing how much can happen in a single year. I feel like a brand new person. I am so very proud of where I am at this stage of my life. It's exactly where I need to be. With the most amazing people by my side. Logan,Lauren and Victoria(my soon to be daughter in law) I love you!
tell your heart to beat again,
Carrie xoxo
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